Escaping

Was Friday the last 60+ degree day of 2025? 

I sat in the house after lunch thinking about whether or not I should go out for a ride on my new Peregrine. I knew it was windy, but it was about 60°F, and very likely could be the last day of 2025 like this. The leaves on the trees were at their peak of Fall colors and were just starting to come down. It would be a great day to get out!

But I was conflicted. Why? 

I thought about how I had planned out on Thursday to take the new-to-me 4Runner and load up the Peregrine to go out to the edge of town and hit the countryside gravel roads, like I used to when I had my old Toyota truck. But when push came to shove, I couldn't find the motivation to do this and it was paralyzing me. 

See, I have the 4Runner only because it was my son's. Jacob died in August and had he still been with us, I would still not have a vehicle. This was how things were supposed to work out. I'm not supposed to have a vehicle now. 

So, yeah..... It's difficult for me to get over this hurdle. 

I did actually get out for that ride though. I didn't go far and I only rode for an hour, but I got out. I escaped the "prison". For me, right now, that is a victory.