It's kind of frustrating when what I really want to be doing is not possible without making some major sacrifices that probably wouldn't go over well with the family or the employer. So, I take what I can get.
There also is a wisdom that says "Don't compare yourself to others", but with social media it is hard not to. Seeing others doing long gravel rides makes me feel depressed sometimes. I shouldn't worry about that, but it gets to me sometimes.
But, I've been riding every day. I've been outdoors, breathing, capable of riding, and staying healthy. That's all good stuff. I should try more to just do my own deal as good as I can do it and be grateful I can do it.
Things change too. I'm in a space now that makes getting out there harder for me, and the weather too, it's been not very favorable much of the year when I've had the chances to ride. I mean, take Sunday for instance. 50's in mid-May? Rain? Hmm.....
Better days will come. I just have to be patient.
|Path flowers are popping.
So for now I have been putting in the miles in between the margins of being busy doing other stuff. Work, family, and well.....more "other work". And the thing is that the schedule is so all over the place that I have been having a hard time adjusting to it all. Too many years of the same-ol-same-ol.
So, I accept that I have a part to own in all of this It's a work in progress......